music was the first consistent source of

joy that I had in life where I realized

there was this phenomenon this thing it

wasn't a person it wasn't a place it

wasn't even necessarily an activity it

was just

experience the sound of these melodies

and rhythms that could change the

way I

felt and make life feel better and not

in a wispy kind of subtle way in a very

intense instant way and it would do it

every single time nothing else in my

life then or since has been that

consistent